
we were skin to skin,
our heat a ravenous, tangible entity between us,
and I could feel myself thawing beneath it,
softening around the edges,
like the petals of a freshly-emerged flower ready for bloom
we spent hours exploring one another,
all night,
night after endless night
all I remember is white everywhere:
the white glow of moonlight creeping around the edges of the curtains,
the white-hot need bursting behind my eyelids,
the whites of his eyes staring so deeply into me,
his teeth beaming from between his lips in a grin, a growl, a pleasure-pain grimace,
his pale white skin against the soft gray sheets
I’d never known skin could be so luminous and translucent,
a network of purply-blue veins visible just beneath the surface,
like threads of color in white marble,
threads that connected us so completely,
I couldn’t tell where he ended and I began
through flesh and unmetered time,
I absorbed his calm,
his vulnerability,
his joy
I said yes to things I previously would not have;
I reveled in this new person I became,
this less afraid person,
this free person he inspired me to be
we fucked all the time;
I was consumed with lust,
perpetually, urgently hungry for him,
for this coupled metamorphosis
l needed to touch him,
meld with him,
know him,
to shed all the layers of contrived bullshit –
for him to know me
I couldn’t get enough