I Am Not

I am not the deleted name,
waiting for me to message first

I am not the number you call
when all other’s haven’t answered

I am not the false nicety,
sparing my feelings

I am not the false compliment,
keeping me coming back for more

I am not 3am,
when the other’s don’t want to be bothered

I am not the one who will stand idly by
while you speak of others behind their backs

I am not the place
where your deflections stick

I will not be reduced
to hand-me-down quality conversation

I am not the friend who will constantly wonder what I did wrong,
asking myself why you don’t want to know me

I am not that friend